A Few Days Left

So, according to my doctor, by the time I hit the 3-month mark, the Lupron should be out of my system completely.  That happens to be in two days.  I have been feeling a lot better over the last few weeks, which is why I kind of stopped writing here.  I do not mean to imply that I have had whatsoever no pain, but it's been bearable.  I still have felt achy (like I have the flu) most every day.  The joint pain is significantly less.  Although, yesterday I really started to notice my joints in my hands and my knees hurt.  Today my knees were throbbing...and it was only from sitting down in a chair.  I also have had quite a bit of cramping in my pelvic area over the last week or so.  My ovaries (mainly the left) has been hurting throughout this 'treatment'.  I think the endometriosis is back.  It must have never left, but just not have been painful because my ovaries and all that were put to sleep for a while.  I was near tears today thinking about all this.  I went through hell and back with this Lupron, and it didn't help.  I knew that the endo would probably come back someday, but according to the pamphlet, it was supposed to be in 5 years or so.  I haven't even had a period yet....so I can only imagine how much more the cramping will be when that is factored in as well.

Am I going to have this joint pain for the rest of my life?  I mean, sure, it's not as bad as it was....but I'm still in pain.  I sit down for 10 minutes, and my knees hurt, I hold a phone for a few minutes, and my hand and wrist hurt.  I didn't sign on for this.  Had I known then what I know now....I would never in a million years taken this drug.  :'(

Week 8 on Lupron | December 29 - January 4

1/4 - My memory has been not-so-well again.  It started a few days ago, but hasn't gotten as bad as it did before.  I hope it doesn't get any worse than it is now.  The pain has been ongoing...nothing new in that department.