Week 3 on Lupron | November 23-30th

The joint pain is getting worse.  I take pain killers each morning and night, and sometimes I also have to take more in the middle of the day.  (Advil and Aleve work the best.  When I take Tylenol, it doesn’t help the pain as much, and that’s usually when I have to take more in the day).
I also have started getting headaches, as well as nausea.  The headaches are bad enough that I would take pain killers for them, if I weren’t already for the joint pain.  And, the nausea comes and goes.  It’s not terrible, though.  Morning sickness was much worse!! 
I have to be honest.  For me, I would ANY DAY take the aches and pains that I’m suffering from now than having the depression.  I truly feel blessed that I’m only having pain and no mental side effects.
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11/30 – I am feeling tremendously disappointed in the fact that my joint pain is worsening.  Each day it seems to worsen, and the Advil isn’t working anymore.  I took an Ibuprofen 800 last night and this morning.  It seems to help the pain when I’m not moving, but as soon as I’m moving around, the pain is still there.  (the pain is there even when I’m not moving my joints…it just worsens a lot when I am moving).   I decided this afternoon to take a Darvocet that I had left over from my surgery.  It has helped.  Again, the pain isn’t 100% gone when I’m moving, but it’s almost gone.  I want to cry.  I do not want to become dependent on narcotics, which will happen if I am taking them for at least the remaining 5 1/2 months left of this treatment.  I am so scared and truly don’t know what to do from here.  I have so much to do…I have a baby, and a job, which requires me to use the computer for hours at a time….I’m in constant pain.  My joints are throbbing.  I don’t want to pick up my baby because it hurts.  I can’t live like that.  I have to do something about the pain.  But, again, I don’t want to become dependent on the drug.  What to do?