12/1 – I went to the doctor today. He seemed surprised by how badly my joints are hurting, and by the fact that it’s my whole body. I felt funny asking for narcotics, but I just can’t function with all the pain. He gave me more Darvocet. Anyway, the pain actually wasn’t too bad for most of today. That is, until I went to Costco and was pushing my heavy cart around, then I really started feeling it. I took some of my pain killers at around 6:00. By 10:00, I was in a lot of pain again. It started shooting up my arms; that’s a different type of pain than it was before. I had my husband massage my arms, and that really helped.
The new side effect that has come along today, is dizziness. At around 4:00 I started feeling dizzy; almost buzzed, really. It was weird. The more I moved, the dizzier I got. Twice I almost fell right over backwards. I absolutely could not catch my balance. I happened to be standing next to my my car the first time and my baby’s crib the 2nd time. Luckily I wasn’t in an open area with the baby in my arms. My gosh! Sometimes these side effects really make me scared that I may be an unfit mother….like falling over with a child in my arms.
Another side effect that I’ve had for a couple of weeks now, but I think I forgot to write about is memory loss. I have always been a bit of the forgetful side, but this is just incredibly worse. It’s weird because it comes and goes. I will be doing pretty good with it, and then I start forgetting everything. It’s actually hard to explain. It’s not so much that I’m forgetting to do little things here and there; it’s that I feel like I’m about to forget who I am. I will feel like any second I could just forget who my children are. I’ve thought about a close friend of mine, and honestly not been able to remember if she had 2 or 3 kids. I was pretty sure it was two, but really wasn’t sure if I was just forgetting one. It’s as if I’m standing on a tightrope, just waiting for the inevitable to happen. That’s the best way I can describe the feeling I have when my memory is really bad. I have cried a time or two because of it. What in the world would I do if I had no short term memory?! I couldn’t stay with my kids alone. When I’m having a ‘memory episode’, I guess I’ll call it, I have to sit and think about if my baby is just in the other room playing, or if she’s asleep. I worry that I’ve forgotten to keep an eye on her. What a terrible feeling.
12/2 – Today all the symptoms are pretty much the same, and I haven’t had any new ones. I’m sleepy as can be, which I’ve actually kind of just gotten used to. Joint pain was there, and again I had shooting pain up my right arm. I took a Darvocet at 7:30 this morning, and haven’t taken another yet. I’m really trying to take as few as possible, so I wait until the pain is unbearable. Sometimes a random joint will just start THROBBING. It will absolutely just stop me in my tracks. Even with the pain I’m having; I would say the worse side effect is the memory loss. I can deal with the pain (as long as my husband will let me complain to him about it here and there), but the mental issues I just can’t take! I do not take for granted that I haven’t gotten depression from this. I do not forget that things could be worse, and that they possibly could change at any time.
12/3 – Funny story. I went to get my prescription for Darvocet filled at Wal Mart. I actually never get them filled there…I usually go to my local Smith’s, but I needed to do a little shopping, so I thought I’d do it all at once. Not to mention, that I was in pain, and took my last Darvocet last night. So, I stand in the line for around 10 minutes (might I add, I had all 3 of my kids with me…who are 5 and under). I finally get up to the counter, and the guy tells me that my driver’s license is expired, so I can’t fill the prescription. (It expired 2 weeks ago…I didn’t even realize it). So, I call my husband, who was just getting off work and heading to a study group for the rest of the day/evening. He said he would meet me there so I could get the prescription filled. I’m really in lots of pain by this time…so much walking around. Not only that, I’m as tired as could be. Anyway, so he gets there, and we again stand in line to get the prescription filled. It was a different person this time, and she looks at the script, and immediately tells me that this drug has been recalled because it gives heart problems. I was so frustrated that the first guy didn’t tell me that! I called my doctor’s office, and it was closed….they close up at 2:00 on Fridays. So, I guess I’ll wait until Monday. I had some Percocet 5 from a previous surgery, so I took half of one of those. It really didn’t do much for the pain. I mean….it did take away the achy pain in my bones….that flu-like pain I have. But, as for the joint pain that hurts so much when I move….it didn’t take that away.
12/4 – I started taking half a percocet with Ibuprofen 800 today. That’s the best concoction so far; that is, other than just a Darvocet. Although, it still doesn’t work 100%. I will still have random shooting pains from different joints, as well as joints starting to throb for a while, and then stop. I’m not sure what’s going on with them. It worries me. Could it be permanent? Of course something bad is happening with them, or they wouldn’t hurt….right?
12/6- I took my prescription back to the doctor because my new concoction I created was okay the first time, and then it started making me sick. He wrote me a new prescription for Ultram. I took one tonight, and it gave me a headache, but it wasn’t horrible. We’ll see how it keeps working.
12/7 – I had a small surgical procedure today, and when I got home, I took an Ultram. I was very sick all day with a pounding headache and I was VERY nauseated. I figured it was just from the anesthesia. So, in the evening, I took another Utram, hoping it would take my headache away, but it made it worse, as well as made me vomit. When I was done, my stomach felt a lot better, and my head progressively got better throughout the night. I will never take one of those again!!
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